This is just a birth control related rant, TW Mental health So I finally bit the bullet and scheduled a doctor’s appointment to switch to a Nexplanon instead of the pill I’m on. My boyfriend and I are not having sex right now, but we did 15 days ago. I’ve taken pregnancy tests with first morning urine and they’re coming negative, but I swear this pill is making me so irrationally anxious! I’m so hyper aware of my body, like anything I feel, I assume somethings going on. I am extremely conscious about what I consume in fear it’s going to interact. I had one loose bowel movement 4 hours, 15 minutes after taking a pill 2 weeks ago and I am CONVINCED I missed the pill and am now pregnant. I’ve looked into therapy, but after talking to my mom, she expressed the pill caused her to be put on an antidepressant, so I think the pill just isn’t for me. I’ve done everything right that I could to keep perfect user status but for some reason, I absolutely cannot trust myself :(

Why wouldn't you still pursue therapy?

@aurielle I’ve messaged probably 8 counselors in my area, and they all declined my insurance. I’m still looking but not as adamantly as I was before.

Hormonal BC makes me a very anxious and paranoid person. I’ve had to stop using it and im still not 100% myself. I’ve always been someone who worries but the pill made me spiral into panic attacks, which I haven’t had since I stopped the pill a few months ago. Changing methods/the brand is a good idea, but be realistic with yourself through out the process. It may just not be suitable for you mentally

@falafels_ TW TW MENTION OF ASSAULT As someone who only got on birth control after being forced into things with an abusive ex, I know that without being on some form will only continue to spiral my anxiety. I was almost admitted somewhere, I was so panicked after what happened. But besides that point. My mom switched from a pill to an IUD and flourished immensely, but I genuinely just think I may need to be medicated for my anxiety (as it’s a generational thing for me) on top of finding a new form of BC.

@nicoanstic_ I am so sorry you experienced that ❤️ I think you are very much on the right track with getting this sorted appropriately. A new method, medication to help with your anxiety and finding a therapist will be a game changer. Im proud of you for making sure your safety is prioritized, we have to look out for ourselves ❤️