my ex of 2 years broke up with me in january, so its been almost 6 months, we’ve had complete no contact, but he has a bunch of public social media accounts that he posts frequently on, and for all those 6 months i dont think there has been a single day where i havent checked on them, im 17 years old and we first met eachother when we were both 11 years old. i still miss him, and the fact that hes got a new girlfriend really hurts me that hes moved on so quickly, ive had multiple talking stages and even slept with a guy a couple times but i still miss him the most, it feels like im never going to let go ever and also that i will never find anyone who is as special as he was to me

since the break up i have definitely been a lot happier out of the relationship than in, and i have heard that he’s been the same too, but after another failed talking stage im just finding myself to be missing him/ the feeling of having that special long term connection with someone

I think you should seek out a therapist to work through everything and move on. It might be a good wake-up call but in forensic’s views when you check someone’s social media more than twice a week it is considered stalking. You said you check it every day and I think you need to be told your behaviour is not normal. Everyone deals with grief differently but at some point you need to choose yourself. You need to start separating yourself from him. Do you have any friends or family to talk to? Do you have hobbies to distract yourself? What do you do for fun?

@Yi_eune i have a lot of friends that i go out and do stuff with and i have hobbies like music that gets me out to gigs and stuff but i always find time to check on him I have thought about therapy but i dont know if my family has the money

@wideeee you need to block him from social media and not unblock him. You have the strength to move on but you need to become your own best friend first and do what’s best for your mental health x

Maybe taking a complete social media break would help? I can tell you confidently that one guy who you met as a child and are happier without is not going to be the most special person you'll ever meet in your life. You're only 17, imo that's too young to be worrying about having a long-term relationship. Keep focusing on yourself and time will make things better.