@hanxx heya I completely relate, so I have depression and general anxiety disorder, so my college gave me therapy and they call me on the phone every week, and I also have the NHS one, and I find that there are a lot of awkward silences and I feel so awkward talking on the phone and just repeating my past traumas over and over again. With therapy however you can actually suggest to try different things, maybe say this isn’t effective, can we do something else ? They will gladly oblige and find ways to help you. CBT isn’t effective for everyone, people don’t like writing in diaries and writing something nice someone’s said to me. When I told her it wasn’t effective she changed it straight away and now me and her just talk about some of my thoughts. Don’t be afraid to tell them if something isn’t working !!