TW: mention of feeling down
The last few cycles the week before my break week I’ve been feel down/flat/off. It’s hard to put into words to describe exactly how I feel but it’s just off. I then also start to think about my life and decide I hate everything my job, my marriage and living abroad. There is nothing wrong with my marriage. My job, yes maybe I’m not fully happy there. Living abroad, I do love it here but I am starting to miss home and certain things that are not the same as living here. Probably doesn’t help that I’ve not been able to travel home in 3 years (planning to go home next March). So I don’t know if a trip home will fix a lot of how I’m feeling. I also think maybe the whole marriage thing is partly because I’m not happy in myself at the minute (I am actively trying to feel better about myself by going to the gym, eating healthy and self care etc). Idk I just feel like the week before my break week I now overthink everything and just feel like I want to run away from everything. Is this normal?! Not sure what I can do to stop feeling like this every month.