How to feel better if you’re not your partners’ “type”?
My boyfriend wants a “big titty goth girl” (his words not mine ), but i am the opposite of that. At the start of the relationship he wanted me to wear a anime cosplay (maid costume) during sex, i said no and he said why not wear fishnet leggings so i did.
Flash forward today a year later he’s showing me car decals he wants to get on his phone. It’s a big titty anime girl, then he went to Instagram searchbar and i saw his recent search history. One account stuck out to me, i searched it up and the girl is his “type”. She is has a following and does of and so her posts are revealing and or sexual. I don’t know how i feel knowing he searched her up. I do feel insecure cuz maybe he doesn’t find me attractive enough thus wants me to “dress up” for him? I haven’t told him what i saw, cuz i don’t want to make it a big deal cuz i don’t see it as cheating but it is weird. Oh yeah a couple days ago too he jokingly i hope said he wants a bumper sticker that says “will brake for goth girls”.
Girl i do not think im ugly and have a good amount of confidence in myself, i just feel sh*tyy cuz methinks boyfriend doesnt find me attractive or up to par with his type. His ex was a “big titty goth girl”, which is another reason why i feel this way
