Due to past trauma, I find it hard to be playful or carefree during sex. I’m not sure how to break through that, but I don’t want it to affect my current relationship. I wonder sometimes if I should push myself more, but I’m also scared of crossing my own boundaries. What do you think ?

I think you should look into therapy / counselling, we all need it from time to time when life be lifing & there’s nothing wrong with getting help crossing certain boundaries or getting help to get pushed out of your comfort as it sounds like you’re not 100% over what happened to you, whatever it was I’m sorry you had to go through it 🫶🏾