Been feeling extra anxious and guilty over a night out that was two months ago with my fiancé and his friend. I got pretty drunk and wanted attention from my fiancé’s friend by asking him if he thought I was fat since I have gained the happy relationship weight. I then was being touchy by rolling his sleeve up to look at his tattoo. I made another post about this recently, where I said this guy is not particularly a good guy and objectifies women so to me that night I think I just wanted to feel desirable by someone who was toxic as my fiancé is anything but toxic is so sweet. I know that compliments and things of that nature feels better coming from outside sources as they are perceived as unbiased my fiancé doesn’t think I did anything bad but I can’t get it out of my mind that I low-key flirted. I made a post on Reddit about this and everyone was ripping me apart saying I disrespected my fiancé and I’m embarrassing and all of that I meet with my therapist this week to talk about it more, but I don’t know, just really crappy