TW: abusive relationship so weirdly powerful how things like music can be. listening to an old band i used to listen to back in highschool and it’s bringing back so many memories, lots unpleasant and it has me thinking about so much that i wish i could change. so much i wish i could’ve done differently. i was dating this boy who was very abusive and i couldn’t bring myself to leave, i was so young and naive, thought it was normal. if i would’ve just left i would’ve had a more “normal” highschool experience. i missed out on so much and i regret it a lot. but i can’t really blame myself and i’m trying my hardest not to. i just wish i could hug my younger self and tell her it’s all going to be okay and that she doesn’t deserve any of the sh*t she went though.